Comel - That inner child

The Universe ... The Universal Creator .... World's Greatest Designer .... ALL refers to that One Great Force whom I know is the Almighty Only God.

And it's really amazing how His miracle works.

I was in pain for the longest time. I had numbed myself for the last 9 years and everytime I un-numbed myself, I'll be on the brink of insanity. It didn't help that your face was bruised on the second day of Eid WHEN you finally thought that things are getting better. It didn't help either when your cries for help, to help you heal ... was turned on a deaf ear to that one person you thought actually matters. Not even when you're just so close to giving up life altogether ... I was suicidal on that very day and in so much pain physically but not as bad as the emotional pain I was suffering.

But God has His plans for us. Somehow we need to complete that one phase of our journey, feel that pain to fully understand the lessons and meanings behind it. Though as much as I believe those words myself, it certainly is tougher to walk the talk.

Today should be a whole new era of Me. For the first time in my life, I got in touch with that inner child of mine during a therapy session I had with Lis. I never imagine that I ever actually needed one. But God heard how that inner me was screaming for help. It actually took awhile for me to recognize the need for me to get help myself. That ... after being pushed to see it which I'm eternally grateful for.

I got in touch with Comel - My inner 6 yrs old child who WAS confused, abused, abandoned and scared. It was indeed one powerful session... as a session later, Comel have said what she needs to say. In one of the exercises that I did with Lis was the things I want to say to Comel in less than 10 words, it goes:

You have the POWER WITHIN YOU to control your life!

It was emotional. But rather it was my pact telling all the spirit in me that very powerful message.

And I was so pumped up with life. Untill a very disheartening comment from whom I believe I knew who hides behind an anonymous.

I reacted.

Which was not very smart. I'm grateful having a friend to point that out to me that I was flashed back to the very statement I wrote on my first grateful list 101 last night:

Alhamdullillah for waking up each day with gratitudes and being fully aware that my life has the support of the Almighty God

So yes ... I am truly grateful that I am now more aware of the actions that I took in my life and being gratefully conscious.

I acknowledged that I attracted negativity due to my negative actions thus the deliberate deletion of all the negative postings I had ever posted.

I am grateful that I have realized that we are individually different and to hold my sarcasm to the lesser learnt.

I am grateful to have a heart that forgives thus I forgave those who wronged me unjustly.

I'm on my way to healing ... as Comel heals.

"I realized that you didn't draw a shoe on Comel .. and now you did" Lis said

"Oh yeah ... you see I actually drew it after that affirmation exercise. And it's a pink shoe. Actually I was thinking of Dorothy" .... I said

Lis smiled .. "Yeap ... Red Ruby Shoe. Klik Klak .. it's magic"

And we go .. hmmm.

I got my red ruby shoe after that session. It is a metaphor for me. A point of realization that now I have a shoe to go places. And best of all it's a special red ruby shoes.

Kilk Klak ... wishes comes true ; now that I am fully aware I have the backing of The Almighty.

Life will be beautiful again.

Amin.

Red Ruby Shoes - klik klak - wishes comes true ;)

What a day.

Oh Boy. What A DAY! What an awesome inspiring fantastical day it has been for me! And I'm not gonna let some male chauvinist to steal away the enthusiasm and hopes that I have from this point onwards.

It started as an ordinary business meeting. But meeting Elisabeth has always been beyond the ordinary. This petite woman, no taller than my 11 yrs old daughter is simply full or life! And today, she have a message to share.

So here I am ... sitting at the Expo, got my beautiful red ruby shoe .. doing my part and sharing her message....to thank it forward!

I met Elisabeth 3 mths ago, we've shared stuffs and she being an NLP master practitioner and a 'Grateful Guru' wanted to help me unlock that walls and ceilings that have been stopping me get to where I wanna be. And I guess there's got to be a reason the Universe had allowed me to set off my inaugural session today with her! But before that session, I had the privilege to witness some of the daily miracles she shared earlier ..

Her many miracles was due to one simple exercise that she did constantly .. which is the Grateful List 101. All we need to do before our heads hits the pillow, is to list 101 things we're grateful for. It could be the things that you really want, but has not achieve it. Practically, it's your WANTS LIST - it's an affirmation list - telling the Universe that you're grateful for that gifts (even if u've not had it)

I've known about this from The Book Of Secret by Rhonda Brynes ... but has yet to implement the gratification exercise. Man!It took me close to 3 years to come to this point and made a pact with myself to really do it for at least the next 21 days!

So Lis had done it and seen miracles after miracles ... like a long lost client who returned and paid long overdued payment in lump sum! Cheques that started to come in, and the best was the biggest deal that came in a platter serve to her right under her nose ... from guess who? The most biggest, luxurious car maker in THE WORLD!! Really jaw dropping!

So, as we talked, Lis mentioned about wanting a personal trainer. Then we went out for lunch. when we returned, at the lift lobby laid a small little pamphlet ON TOP OF A RUBBISH BIN. It's a personal fitness trainer ads located JUST 3 LEVELS BELOW HER OFFICE. As she was reading, she pressed the 6th level to her office. Somehow the lift stopped... on the 3rd floor, where the personal trainer's office is. We didn't press that level, it's just meant to be. She goes ..." perhaps I gotta see this place since the lift stopped right here " we walked towards the office but it was locked. And she said .. "See ... this are the little miracles that happens .. I've asked for a personal trainer .. place to exercise near office and .. then this! You'll see this personal trainer will come to me" and at that instance .. Sandy the American Personal fitness trainer walked towards us!

Coincidence? A good friend have said ... perhaps life is all about coincidences as there is really no coincidence in life.

Back to her office ... awhile later, another client of hers walked in. Another miracle story learnt!

Peter had done his Grateful 101 list, went to Amsterdam WITHOUT an agenda AT ALL. During his stay, a good fren of his emailed .. and guess what? A great opportunity served right under his nose. Even then Peter was not convince. And 24 hrs upon his arrival from Amsterdam TODAY, his questions and uncertainties was answered via today's front page article! Peter says .... "You don't have to worry about the how's .... that will fall in place. It's just a matter of having the eyes to recognize the signs"

Observing Lis for the whole 6 hrs is truly a privilege ... she's infectious alrite! Infecting me with good vibes that is. And the best is in discovering that inner child within me.

Comel ... came out.... and she got her Red Ruby Shoes - Klik Klak - wishes comes true ;)

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