Amidst the laughter, the smiles ... it was all a brave front.
We all tried hard not to shed another tear. Not at this happy ocassion, where you should be .. sitting amongst us with your infectious joy and merry chattering.
We missed you. I missed you.
As much as I tried not to cry, I succumbed to grievance. It could be the quiet journey home in the car that brought back memories of you.
Who would have expected that you will leave us this soon? Days prior to your departure, you have kept reciting the kalimah syahadah. You knew.
And when I cried while stroking and messaging your legs, your head gestured for me not to cry like you did when Hani cried.
And why didn't it occur to me .. when I saw your eyes spoke to each and every one of us the last night prior to your departure?
I should have known. I guess I knew .. but never did I expect it to be this soon.
My consolation is ... God loves you more Mak.
When the morning call from Kak Shidah mentioned that you have collapsed, I have prayed that may Rasullullah be there to hold your hands ... that you many not have fear in your heart ..
While I'm just a mere being who errs ... who's nowhere near pious, but I believe Allah remembers your kindness that you have poured to many .. to my family. That I shall never forget.
God loves kind souls. And you are one of the chosen few.
However sad I may be, somehow I knew you're at a better place, where you're no longer in pain or sadness.
We all will always miss you .. and you shall forever lives in our hearts.
Al-Fathehah khususan ila arwahi Hj Ramlah Bte Marzuki ... my beloved mother in law.
